I did talk to one of my teacher today. I always have to talk alone with her every Tuesday. She has to see that everything are all right. But if that was it I could have dealt with it, but she starts fuss about everything!!! I hate it! She don't even care!! She only do it for the money. I'm so pissed right now. I'm so sick of all the treatment I have to go to. Why can't they leave me alone?!?

We did also get our grades today. What a disappointment! Nothing is good enough, and this school year my grades has been going constantly downwards... I can't concentrate about school, all I can think about is food, weight, food, calories, food, food and FOOD!!!!

Why can't I get my life back?! What have I done to deserve this? I have asked myself that question many times and I every time I get the same answer... I'm a terrible person. I don't deserve to have a great life. I deserve to burn in hell!

Anyway, before I stop writing today I just have to say that I hope u don't mind my terrible english..? English is not my native language, so I hope I don't bother u with all my grammar fault and write fault...

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